Strange things creep from my head

lasrina:

recomvery:

The most soul crushing thing is being in your mid to late 20’s and comparing yourself with your peers. One of them is married, one has an amazing job, one just bought a house, one is pregnant, one is very successful. And you look at yourself and you have none of these accomplishments, you still feel like a kid inside, you’re the same age but really you feel so much younger, so behind. You’re living in different worlds, different lives, so far apart. And you observe them and all you want is to be like them, all grown, all independant and functional. And then the fear creeps in: What if I will never get there? What if my mental issues are always gonna keep me in the same place? And that feeling, that huge fear and doubt and incapability, I wonder if that’s what they meant when they talk about a “quarter life crisis”. You’re gonna get there, in your own time. This is a normal experience millions of people our age have and have always had. It will be ok.

And then one day you’re in your mid to late 40’s. A lot of your friends with the “perfect” marriages are divorced now; the ones with the “perfect” jobs burned out early, or succumbed to the grind. Some have kids, some don’t. Some found their passions at work, some crashed and burned spectacularly, some are working a job for the paycheck to support their hobby of making their little clay animals or tending their backyard chickens. You? You know what you want, now. It’s not the same as what you wanted when you were 25. In fact, you’re kind of glad you didn’t get those things then, because you became wise, at some point, while you weren’t looking. You know now, in a way you never did when you were young, that your brain isn’t actually that weird, and there are so many people like you, and all of them, including you, deserve to feel good and loved and cared for. You still feel like you’re about 12 on the inside, but everybody else does too. You’ve learned to be kind, not least to yourself. You’re happy more often than you’re sad. You have people you love richly, and who love you. You laugh all the time. One day you sit by the lake in the late afternoon autumn sunlight and you think about being 25, and how you were convinced your life was already over, and you smile, and think to yourself, I’m so glad I’m here.

(via littlestartopaz)

fictionadventurer:

awesomebutunpractical:

One trap that All the Time Daydreamers, Sometimes Writers, fall into is this idea that writing is transcribing the daydream.

It’s not. The daydream is a fuzzy thing. There are gaps that you don’t need to fill in a daydream, because you already get the emotional point. A lot of it is emotion. And because it makes you feel like a complete story would, your brain is tricked into thinking that’s what you have.

Then you sit down to actually write the thing and you realize you’re trying to write a Space Opera without actually inventing any planets or space ships. You don’t even know if the characters start out on the same planet. If they’re on a planet at all. You didn’t bother to check.

Now you will vaguely reference this in first-second person in any writing guide you make up for the rest of time.

When you write, you’re building something. It’s not a pale imitation of what you have in your head- what you have in your head can’t exist on the outside. This is a whole new beast. It’s going to ultimately look different and this is a good thing.

Also the internal critic is dumb.

I’m not even trying to be nice to your writing specifically here. The internal critic is looking for a completed story and you don’t have one yet. So anything it has to say flat out does not apply.

This is so relatable that I’ve considered making this post many times.

The idea in your head is wonderful because it gives you all the emotions and ideas without pesky things like concrete details and logic getting in the way. Trying to write it down forces you to decide those things, which makes it a different story from the one that exists as a pure cloud of imagination. Story ideas can have multiple conflicting ideas happen at once–you just know the general gist and it doesn’t matter what order things happen in or which exact words are said. When you write it down, that cloud of possibilities collapses into a single reality–if Character says this line first, that means they can’t say it later; if they say Funny Line A, they can’t also say Funny Line B at that same spot in the conversation; if they go left that means they can’t also go right at that moment. Infinite possibility becomes reality, and those choice can be hard. And that’s not even getting into the fact that the moment you try to nail down a concrete timeline, issues like, “No one would react this way” or “That actually makes no sense” or “What is the mystery they’re trying to solve?” pop up and wreck the beautiful little thing in your imagination.

Any act of writing is an act of translation. You’re adapting it into a new medium. Which makes it not the thing in your head, but which does make it something you can share with your sadly non-telepathic audience. If you can figure out how to write it.

(via aspiringwarriorlibrarian)

teaboot:

quadradaz:

smirnoffpasta:

quietstorm-thundathighs:

itskyalenotkyle:

itskyalenotkyletoo:

Lmaoo

It’s disrespectful

This is SPECTACULARLY done

I feel called out

This man looks like a Carrivaggio depiction of a bacchinalian God and I must do art about him

(via fangirlingpuggle)

ms-demeanor:

ms-demeanor:

hey, don’t cry. one cup heavy whipping cream, two tablespoons granulated sugar, three tablespoons cocoa powder and whisk until stiff peaks form for three ingredient chocolate mousse, okay?

i realized that i like the format because it’s the exact opposite of the recipe blogs with 1000 words before they get to an ingredient list.

(via decepticonsensual)

mossspores:

brendering:

funkylittlebats:

garcavisconde:

mima-sama:

biggaybunny:

I know it’s been talked about before but I still don’t think it’s been emphasized how *fucked* today’s internet experience is for children. I didn’t know what the word “discourse” was when I was 8, or 10, or even 13. I was too busy playing the nigh-limitless amount of flash games out there on the internet and making sure my neopets were fed. Like I cannot stress enough that if I had free time on the computer, 9 times out of 10 I could go and play a jaunty little game someone had whipped up and put out there for no other reason than that creating games was awesome and easy to do. Or go to some page that existed just to collect memes; you see back then there were more than 4 sites, and you didn’t need accounts to visit them. I didn’t get targeted ads. I wasn’t exposed to any sort of political ideology. I spent a lot of time on the computer but no one site monopolized my time or tried to fucking manipulate me into using it more. The internet was for more than one thing back then, and honestly I don’t think enough people realize how much has been stolen from us.

I understand the feelings of despair, but the rest of the internet is still very much out there. There’s a growing and dedicated movement to take it back from corporations. I’ll link a few of the neat little websites I’ve found on Neocities and in various other places.

https://sadgrl.online/ - A good jumping-off point that has html guides, links to webrings, and other cool stuff.

https://deathgenerator.com - You ever wanted to make one of those funny fake video game screenshots, but you don’t have the patience to do the image editing? Well, here you go!

https://signal.vercel.app/edit - A neat little free online midi editor! You can upload midi files or compose your own!

https://dan-ball.jp/en/javagame/dust/ - A cool falling-sand-type game. The website it’s hosted on is full of other cool games, most of which are free and don’t require flash (rip flash)

https://webshark.neocities.org/gamepages - Speaking of games that don’t require flash, here’s a whole page of ‘em. Most are fairly simple, but they’re still a lot of fun.

https://ocremix.org/ and https://vgmusic.com/ - Two websites that have been around since almost forever. OCRemix is home to video game music remixes, and VGMusic has a MASSIVE library of video game midis! I used to spend a lot of time on VGMusic in particular when I was a kid.

https://cooltext.com/ - You can make cool-looking text! They also have free fonts you can download.

And this is by no means a comprehensive list, no. This is just a sampling. There’s so much out there just waiting to be discovered– you just have to go looking for it! (And remember, kids, be careful out there– computer viruses and malware are still very much a threat, so I encourage you to get uBlock Origin or NoScript– or both– for your web browser before you start web surfing! Also never give out any personal information! And for the love of all that is good, and for your own safety, please stay away from the porn sites if you’re under the age of 18.)

Have fun, stay safe, and

HEY KIDS, YOU WANT MORE GAMES? ITCH.IO HAS PLENTY OF WEIRD GAMES YOU CAN PLAY ON YOUR BROWSER OR DOWNLOAD ON YOU COMPUTER. Just remember to always check tags and description to avoid finding things that are for a much older audience.

There’s also special browsers like NuMuKi that you can still play old flash games on!!!

Literally reblogging this mainly for the VGMusic link. That place fucking raised me in my own little solitude of *actually being able to find and download and listen to* video game tunes as a preteen in the mid-2000s, even if they were just (usually very accurate) recreations that people had made.

That site taught me about MIDI. It enticed me to learn to MAKE MIDI files. It’s where my entire digital music skillset began, and in turn I contributed a handful of MIDIs to the site, and so did many people I’d come to call friends and acquaintances through the Homestuck music and general VGM communities!!

We so desperately need to support sites like these, so please do give them a visit and, if you find value in what they provide, maybe thank the creators in whatever ways feel right to you💙

(via aspiringwarriorlibrarian)

sentimental-apathy:

I’m crying from laughing so hard, this improv is so damn hilarious omfg lol

(via aspiringwarriorlibrarian)

simkaye:

Feral and doing my best 🙃 @raccooncomic

(via fangirlingpuggle)

whatareyoureallyafraidof:

rootbeergoddess:

THANK YOU!

If anyone tries to use, “If black people can have black pride, white people can have white pride.” argument show this to them because my man is laying down some truth.

(via seainthestars)

fuckyeahchinesefashion:

motion capture actress 曦曦鱼sakana shows how npc moves in early games, common games and next-gen games.